R. Kelly has long been accused of various sexual misconduct allegations, but accusations ramped up in 2017 when Buzzfeed ran a story about the singer housing a number of young women as part of a sex cult.
Well, Kellz broke his silence on the matter this week, with a 19-minute track called “I Admit”.
“I admit I done made some mistakes and I have some imperfect ways,” the 51-year-old R&B legend sings, before adding that he “feels like retiring.”
Kelly then goes on to address illiteracy claims (“I admit I can’t spell for shit”) and admits to having sex with many women including fans (“I admit I’m a freak”), but denies any wrongdoing.
“How they gon’ say I don’t respect these women when all I’ve done is represent? / Take my career and turn it upside down ’cause you’re mad I’ve got some girlfriends / Hell with this record deal / It ain’t worth this shot for real / Ain’t seen my kids in years / They’re tryna lock me up like Bill,” he sings.
Later in the song, Kelly shockingly admits that he gave his publishing away, because he was not able to read the contracts. “Now the truth in this message is I’m a broke-ass legend / The only reason I stay on tour is ’cause I gotta pay my rent,” he sings. “I never thought it would come to this, to being the most disrespected artist / So I had to write a song about it / ‘Cause they always take my words and twist it / Believe me, it’s hard to admit all this.”
Despite all the allegations, he reminds listeners that he’s never been convicted. “Spotify took me off their playlists / I admit that I been underrated,” he sings. “I’m not convicted, not arrested, but dragged my name in the dirt / All this work to be successful and you abandoned me ’cause of what you heard.”
And even later, Kelly says he, himself, was a victim of sexual assault as a young child. “I admit a family member touched me / From a child to the age of 14 / While I laid asleep, took my virginity / So scared to say something, so I just put the blame on me,” he sings.
As far as the “sex cult” claims, he says that “sounds silly”. “I admit I am not perfect / I never said I was perfect / Say I’m abusing these women / What the f*ck, that’s some absurd shit / They brainwashed, really? / Kidnapped, really? / Can’t eat, really? / Real talk, that sh*t sounds silly.”
“What’s the definition of a cult? / What’s the definition of a sex slave? / Go to dictionary, look it up, let me know, I’ll be here waitin’ / Now I admit I got some girls that love me to pull they hair / And I admit they love me talk dirty when I pull they hair / Some like me to spank them, some like to give brain / And what some of these girls want is too much for the radio station.”
Kelly ends the song with one final message. “There is one thing that’s for sure, and I want to make this sh*t clear / I done lift my voice and represented my country for 31 f*cking years.”