Actor Macaulay Culkin is all grown up, but isn’t over the trauma he suffered from the 1990 Christmas classic, Home Alone.

In a new Youtube show called “:DRYVRS”, the 35-year-old reprises his role as Kevin McCallister, who is now a cranky husband of an on-demand car service driver that has to fill in for his wife.

When his passenger, played by series creator/writer Jack Dishel, says he’s “ice cold” for ignoring his mother’s phone call, Culkin shares the trauma he’s suffered over the years for the Christmas he spent alone when he was 8 years old.

“You think that’s cold?” Culkin asks. “How about this: It’s Christmas time. It’s f*cking Christmas and your whole family goes on vacation and they forget their 8-year-old f*cking son.”