The much-hyped interview with Karrueche Tran on OWN aired on Saturday night (March 28), during which she opened up about her well-publicized relationship with Chris Brown.

During the interview, the 26-year-old tells her side of the story, her feelings about the singer fathering a child with another woman, why they stayed together for so long, and her thoughts on him getting back with Rihanna.

“This is about recognizing my mistakes and learning from them,” Karrueche wrote on Instagram, in announcing the special’s premiere. “I own up to all the poor choices I have made and pray for the better. I pray everyday to God to strengthen me as a human and a young woman. I only ask that you at least understand me, whether you continue to like me or hate me. At the end of the day, we all have not been at our best at times so please learn from me and never forget to love yourself.”

Below are some of the highlights:

On her TMZ image: “Now that I’ve chosen a career — acting and modeling — which requires me to be in the limelight, it’s very important. One time, I went to an audition and I stated my name, and the lady was like, ‘Oh, that name sounds really familiar. I’ve seen you on TMZ.’ Her first perception of me was what she had heard.”

On finding out about CB’s child through social media: “Honestly, through social media. He wanted to talk in person. Actually, at the moment that I found out, he was texting me saying, ‘I need to talk to you in person.’ Then I got online and I saw that.”

If she still has feelings for Brown: “I still love him. I’ve tried to help him. Go to church, pray, yoga, meditate. If he wanted to change, we’d be in a better place. But that’s the problem. He is damaged but… I’m damaged too.”