With Eminem gearing up for his “The Monster Tour” with Rihanna this August, the Rap God sits with L.A. radio station Power 106 for a rare interview.

During the chat, he talks about the story behind his song “Talkin’ 2 Myself,” off 2010’s Recovery album, where he says he contemplated dissing Lil Wayne and Kanye.

“When I made the record ‘Talkin’ 2 Myself,’ what I was basically talking about [was] with the time period that I was away,” Eminem explains. “I was kind of watching what was going on in the game and it was like anything that was hot at that moment, or anybody who was really killing sh*t at that moment, I felt like — I felt so bad about myself and the music that I was creating that I felt like I started to turn into a hater. And, it wasn’t just — you know, singling Kanye and Wayne out at that time period, I mean they were the one’s who were the killing it the most to me. Tt hurt. I’d pop the CD in and be like, ‘F*ck man, I’m not doing this no more.’ I felt like I came very close to like, for me it would have been career suicide because I felt like, ‘I should make a song just dissing everybody who’s doing in it the game right now.'”

On the song, Em references both Lil Wayne and Kanye West specifically. “Hatred was flowing through my veins, on the verge of going insane / I almost made a song dissing Lil Wayne / It’s like I was jealous of him cause the attention he was gettin’ / I felt horrible about myself, he was spittin’ and I wasn’t / Anyone who was buzzin’ back then coulda got it, almost went at Kanye too.”

Despite the itch, Em says he never wrote any explicit diss against either of his rap peers. “I just had the thoughts, just walking around the studio,” he said. “I think that deep down I just wasn’t happy with myself, man. I knew that there were some really dark moments in there. When I think about how my thought process was when I was high a lot, it wasn’t good, man, and it certainly wasn’t me ’cause I’m not even that kind of person.”