Kanye West XXL Oct 2010Kanye West has always seemed to have a love and hate relationship with the media, simply because he feels his words are taken out of context or misunderstood. But, if something is taken the wrong way in the new cover story for the October issue of XXL, he’ll only have himself to blame.

Why? Because he penned the piece himself.

The mag revealed, via their website (XXLMag.com), that West penned the cover story on himself, which would be his first article ever, and also acted as the creative director of his own 40-page section in the upcoming special collector’s issue.

In the piece, he opens up about the aftermath of his 2009 MTV Video Music Awards stunt where he interrupted Taylor Swift’s acceptance speech.

“I stress that the incident wasn’t about Taylor personally,” West writes. “And it definitely wasn’t about race. Where I messed up is, at the end of the day, it’s your show, Taylor. It’s your show, MTV.”

Following the incident, West became the center of hate and the butt of jokes from almost everybody — from fans to media to his peers. Even President Obama weighed in, calling West “a jackass.”

West admits he was wrong, and said an apology — to everyone — was necessary.

“The relationship with the public and with your fans is like the relationship with your girlfriend,” he wrote. “How could I not, at a certain point, be like, ‘I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have been at the awards show. I’m sorry’? Not that I don’t deserve to get beat up or change who I am inside, to make sure that that doesn’t happen again.

“I knew I wasn’t in a great spot publicly after the incident, but I would just block it out and work as hard as possible and let my work be my saving grace,” he added.

The issue is scheduled to hit newsstands September 28, and will also feature stories on Kid Cudi, Wiz Khalifa and a package on producers-turned-rappers.